Entries from February 2004 ↓

These couple of days, actually a lot of things happened, and I believed they happened for a reason. A reason which I may not know it now, but perhaps is important. Last Tuesday I got a message that suddenly my grandfather [from my mother side] passed away after playing his favorite sport, golf. This news rather shocked me since I never heard of him getting ill or something like that. Continue reading →

Another story of intense relationship is happening concerning a friend.
Quite an intense one.

Are we going in the same direction?
I’ve said it, and you’ve said it too.

Just one word, elected: just by a single vote more than the next person, but the implication for me will be at least: major. Continue reading →

I know when there is feeling deep inside that I am just a boy who is not mature, incapable of defining my own feelings. Like right now, there is a chance, a wide open one they say, to reach someone. I am not sure to do “what I am supposed to do”. Although I do “want” to but I am not sure “how”.

Afraid of getting another burden: another stigma of mine. I need reassurance, I need support that is expressed.

These days are really making me nervous. But I also feel a “let go” feeling, what ever may be, will be, right?

It’s definitely have been quite a long time since I last wrote anything in this log of mine, but now I have the chance to wrap it all up down to a single entry. Continue reading →